I LoSt My FrEed0m

It's exactly been:
One year, twenty-eight days...and counting
since I've lost my freedom
to A guy that I know would never be mine.

Before everything:
I'm here, standing so still
no sad emotions and smiling:)
I'm enjoying the view,
the scene that I think I would probably only see once.

And he's there...
Enjoying his guy friend's company.
Watching the sun as it sets.

Everything has been so exciting and unforgettable.
We drink the happiness all the way out
while playing my favorite pool game.
We're in a place I'd call paradise.:)

While It happens:
I'm already drunk, but I still feel so alive!
I can still play one more game without messing it all up,
Still functioning, my mind..that is.

Helping me get up on my knees,
We walked, his arms were around me.
He was hugging me,
taking care of all the things around me.
Leading me back safely.

And then,
he did it.. never thought he would be like that.
I mean, he loved me that night.
He made me feel so special, like a baby.

I was under the spirit of alcohol, alright.
But it felt so good.... I can still remember the way I felt.
The feeling of being hugged... One arm on my neck, and one arm on my waist.
It was soooo.... Wonderful.

But as I close my eyes,
he left me. And all the magic of that dream had fade.

After all the things:
Here I am, still standing.
So stiff, My body's becoming weary,
Tired and all that.

And there he is,
laughing with his buddies,
glancing at me like nothing happenned.

And it was all that.
But until today, it still haunts me.
The magic, the dream... it was all here..
never leaving me.
Didn't know it will all come to this...

It's exactly been:
One year, twenty-eight days...and counting.
And I'm still finding my way to it...
Fighting to have my freedom back,
from a guy that I know would never be mine.